Better off Doin it Alone

Back in Penang , everything was plain simple. You wake up- you get some MOM`s special Milo. You get ready for work - WORK- come home - play - hang out- eat- have fun (note- the list is actually endless) But right now i live in Old Klang Road - Where i wake up like really early - Get myself to work - which is actually a tough thing- its like a 1 hour journey- WORK- 1 hour journey back and....drum rolls........... do NOTHING then just look at the ceiling. So i said " This should not prolong. So i opted to bring Ziggy to the Big Apple with me (My PC) .
Then things got a better had - i had some things to look forward to whenever i go back home to. Not to mention i have some very nice people who occasionally take me out for a dinner- I mean its the best i say - what else can you ask for then for a dinner at a different spot. I am truly thankful to my brother - if it wasn't for his friends i would be lost here.

So being better off alone you say sasi.........
Ive noticed that ever since i got here , i need to do everything all by myself. Those whose answering back to this phrase- hold your horses .
You see when you are here - you NEED to do everything ALL by yourself- and i can bet you that most of you out there don't know jack s#!+ of what i am going through.
OK- here it is.

• You wake up
• -bath-
  
• make or buy something to eat by yourself-
• iron your cloth -
  
• and get to work all by yourself-
• come back from work
  
• do the laundry -
  
• buy food -YOUR self- and sleep -
  

Oh not to mention clean up your place once in a while. You will not have anyone to remind you of anything which may be important- you will not have anyone to update you of anything- Its like your in JAPAN ffs.
Building what you once had....
Your 25 years old - so when you move else where you NEED to build back relationship from square 1 - thats like a 25 years long project. You wont have good friends- you would have normal friends -since your childhood friends are all back in your hometown. If you were to compare yourself on your progress back in you hometown - you would have done better- in which you wont even know what i am going through because in order for you to understand my situation - you have to endeavor it yourself.

i never meant to rant today... :( but there are just sometimes where you need to let people know. This was actually an ongoing thing in my life - i just didn't want to share it- thats all- besides most of them don't really care. They`ll be like - stop sulking and get over it or something like that.. ahahaha

So this is how i felt before the clock hit 2007 this year- i am over it right now. not
"over it" not in a sense of immune to it but more like - "Sasi ! this is you, and this is the path you have to go"

GG guys :)



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p.s GG is an acronym for good game. It can mean - "Ok we are hosed" right up to "good job guys" its a very popular gaming term :)