I know - and im trying

Every time someone thinks or even talk/say about me- its always negative- i represent negativity. I so don't want to be that - but the harder i try not to be that way - the deeper i plunge in to the pool or negativity :(
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If someone is reading i suppose you can sense the "sad" / lame part of me- No matter how nice and happy i try to portray myself.... i end up having a bitter end to most of my blog entries, and real life in this case. I was always happy with temporary ecstasy which i had from -friends, family- lovers.

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i once heard of an artist who had paintings that looks and felt depressing no matter how hard he tried to make them look happy

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eerf had in fact lived to its purpose -
there is no true word for the opposite of free-

that's how i ended up with eerf-- what an irony

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this is it the end of my blog :)

thanx for reading

none for eerf.blogspot.com

Where is everyone ??

Sometimes - i realize that i try too hard :(

Guess ill try harder..

guess ill just try else where..
idk idk ...


1 for February 14 :)

Alah No BBQ by the beach

My blogs been too long - am cutting em short for now :)

Thats it la - im planning once again to party this weekend-

a. meet by long lost boy friend John

b.meet up wif my bro for like truck load of family/friend/food fun - i call it the triple F ekeke

c.Meet uncle Lim wif PG friends...

i wonder which one will be confirmed- for all i know its 33% on all sides. Im like First Come First Serve :) Currently its A :)

"Sasi there is no Beaches in KL !! "

-Vicky '2007 -

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Better off Doin it Alone

Back in Penang , everything was plain simple. You wake up- you get some MOM`s special Milo. You get ready for work - WORK- come home - play - hang out- eat- have fun (note- the list is actually endless) But right now i live in Old Klang Road - Where i wake up like really early - Get myself to work - which is actually a tough thing- its like a 1 hour journey- WORK- 1 hour journey back and....drum rolls........... do NOTHING then just look at the ceiling. So i said " This should not prolong. So i opted to bring Ziggy to the Big Apple with me (My PC) .
Then things got a better had - i had some things to look forward to whenever i go back home to. Not to mention i have some very nice people who occasionally take me out for a dinner- I mean its the best i say - what else can you ask for then for a dinner at a different spot. I am truly thankful to my brother - if it wasn't for his friends i would be lost here.

So being better off alone you say sasi.........
Ive noticed that ever since i got here , i need to do everything all by myself. Those whose answering back to this phrase- hold your horses .
You see when you are here - you NEED to do everything ALL by yourself- and i can bet you that most of you out there don't know jack s#!+ of what i am going through.
OK- here it is.

• You wake up
• -bath-
  
• make or buy something to eat by yourself-
• iron your cloth -
  
• and get to work all by yourself-
• come back from work
  
• do the laundry -
  
• buy food -YOUR self- and sleep -
  

Oh not to mention clean up your place once in a while. You will not have anyone to remind you of anything which may be important- you will not have anyone to update you of anything- Its like your in JAPAN ffs.
Building what you once had....
Your 25 years old - so when you move else where you NEED to build back relationship from square 1 - thats like a 25 years long project. You wont have good friends- you would have normal friends -since your childhood friends are all back in your hometown. If you were to compare yourself on your progress back in you hometown - you would have done better- in which you wont even know what i am going through because in order for you to understand my situation - you have to endeavor it yourself.

i never meant to rant today... :( but there are just sometimes where you need to let people know. This was actually an ongoing thing in my life - i just didn't want to share it- thats all- besides most of them don't really care. They`ll be like - stop sulking and get over it or something like that.. ahahaha

So this is how i felt before the clock hit 2007 this year- i am over it right now. not
"over it" not in a sense of immune to it but more like - "Sasi ! this is you, and this is the path you have to go"

GG guys :)



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p.s GG is an acronym for good game. It can mean - "Ok we are hosed" right up to "good job guys" its a very popular gaming term :)

Iam Ga-nan-Z from New Zealand

I was back in Penang last week - l
my plan when i was in Kl was to catch a bus at noon and drop by 6pm at jeti and bribe my friend with a Whooper Burger from Burger King. So with quik liquid speed i dashed to the burger king bought the stuff and lapped to the bus station only to be greeted to "Sorry bang - dwebleh punye baaeh doh lepaieh dah" so i said topo- bagi aku satu punye-so i got in the bus and was on my meery way- then SUDDENLY bas stopped completely - stopped at Tapah and that was it - it stopped fer good- "aleh dik Btheri Kong deh"
so i deviced a plan to hitch hike a from another bus - which only happens to stop at sg.petani which is 2 hours away from penang- so i was told- i said OK- then i started calling people frantically to get my self from sg.petani- but to my luck -my dad happen to hire a van to get my mom n sis to penang- i saw the oppurtinity and took the chance - i told the bus driver to stop me at Bt.Kawan - and walked my way to home only to be delayed for another 2 hours before i was sent to Penang- DRop PG and that was it la - I WHISPERED TO MY SELF GG LA SASI -eehh tercaps lock pula.


man i had to say i patched up every THING - everything that includes you preevena. Im being viewed in a diffrent perspective right now. Being a so called "party leader" - we managed to over come some diffcult times in game.
But im just 65 right now - i know i could do better - so i hafta work deligently to lvl - have target to reach 70 by sunday and raid non stop on Mana tombs and also tempest keep - have some dark agendas right there( note if i have mention it here - it is not so dark anymore)
Had a modest BBQ at moggs- had some Tanni as well- we were all happy and thats what boost is capable of -nothing else and it shud remain that way.


This required to penang
3 seluak dalam
2 seluak pendek
1 jeans stail levi potong lurus
3 baju t-shirt
1 book
1 Jack Daniels 1ltr

things attained at penang
tipsy
full stomach
happy face
stronger bond wif my geng
and as always- felt like a royality
it`s priceless -


Thanx guys

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